Since I left the uBPDbf over 2 years ago, I haven't been able to find any work. Not in my career (made a royal go at it too) and not even regular jobs. You wouldnt' believe the amount of apps I filled out. I think I may be close to be getting an interview for a job that will allow me to survive but not enough to let me move out. I am selling anything of worth right now to make it through.
Momster "helped me out" by giving me a gas card and a hardware store card at the beginning. She also helped with repairs on my car. I have given this woman tens of thousands of dollars over the years for whatever she needs...major repairs to the house, taxes, etc etc and never saw a cent back. Now that I need this help, in pure BPD fashion, she is pulling the rug out from under me because I have "displeased her".
I am on the brink of getting an Order of Protection against my stalking brother (her minion) and getting legal help for the impending eviction when she pulled the rug out this a.m. She called in a very business-like way and asked me to cease and desist using the gas card. This effectively grounds me at home and imprisons me at the property they stalk me at. I felt this coming down the pike like a bad storm. I had a panic attack last weekend knowing that the way they are acting, they want to cut off all support from me and let me drift.
All this because I left a man that abused me, started dating a non (that they HATE), and stood up for myself against the f.o.o.'s crazy abuses. It all feels like a kick in the face. I just don't know how much longer I can survive like this. I have mentioned before that when I leave the house to find work or anything that the next few days I get stalked and harassed even more by f.o.o. You know how BPDs "ramp up the crazy" when you displease them. I have had Momster call me up and interrogate me as to where I am and what I am doing (I am 36 mind you) when I leave the house. She has uBPD/ASPD spy on me so she knows my comings and goings.
So now this is the way she's going to cut me from my freedom. If I don't have a car in this area, I can't work. If I don't have a job when she tries to evict me, I will be homeless.
Has the world gone completely mad?
So this is the beginning of the end.